Sitter, KathleenMcDermott, MairiLadhani, Sheliza2023-06-192023-06-192023-06-13Ladhani, S. (2023). always.in.bits. (Doctoral thesis, Univerisy of Calgary, Calgary, Canada). Retrieved from https://prism.ucalgary.ca.https://hdl.handle.net/1880/116634https://dx.doi.org/10.11575/PRISM/41477The mo(ve)ments gathered, held, and offered to you here, are connected to institutional life yet breach its hold. This multi-voiced autoethnographic representation of (re)memberings and (re)imaginings, draws upon critical race theory, anti-racism, and settler colonialism as analytics to attune to the reproduction of parallel projects of domination and how particular violences are thrust on / against our bodies, Black, Indigenous, and racialized bodies. Here, we consider how our (re)memberings of racism and colonial violence within higher education feed our (re)imaginings and desires for more than what is. In working in relation to / with memory as an intimate and rebellious methodology, we draw upon our distinct historical and ancestral inheritances and asymmetrically interconnected knowledges of living amidst porous worlds of haunting and abundance, held by and preserved within the corporeal vessel, as a form of collective labour for livability, for shared futures that might yet be. These orientations and analytics open up decolonial possibilities for this work, spaces to travel in / through to make sense of the distinct yet linked experiences across our differences. This vessel carefully holds layered curations of bodily affect(ion)s through various fragmented forms of representation. In bringing together these fragments in fragile connectivity, this work traces and follows how bodies, voices, and affects find one another here, in an institutional space that continually deploys its racial and colonial machinations for our containment, erasure and extraction. Through membranous seeping, border crossing, and portal jumping to reclaim our bodies (of knowledge), our (re)memberings and (re)imaginings illuminate desires and yearnings for belonging in this world together, alongside world-making practices made possible by inheritance, kinship, and the alchemy of imagination.enUniversity of Calgary graduate students retain copyright ownership and moral rights for their thesis. You may use this material in any way that is permitted by the Copyright Act or through licensing that has been assigned to the document. For uses that are not allowable under copyright legislation or licensing, you are required to seek permission.memorydecolonialrelationsimaginationhauntingracismcolonialityalchemySocial WorkEthnic and Racial StudiesEducation--Curriculum and Instructiondoctoral thesis